you rock i rock we stone你石头！

2009-11-28T01:13:00.003+08:00

The world is still turning.
My life is still running.
Run Run Run...
Live your life till the fullest.

Carpe diem.

Saisissez Le Jour.

2009-03-01T20:20:00.000+08:00

I'm starting to change.

But the problem...

For the bad or the better?

2009-02-07T22:53:00.002+08:00

Cip was fun ;D
There was miscommunication from the Sir though.
The guy was very friendly and lame...
Badminton was nice :D
At Clementi with Eve and Sharon.
Shall do it again sooon ;)

2009-02-04T21:33:00.002+08:00

Life is so controversial. Fun it may be at times but there are many events that affect us negatively. The life in Singapore is mundane. A 10 years compulsory national education? It helps to liberate a higher percentage of successful figures but it also dampens the citizen's mood in this country. How ironic that is. A rapidly advancing first world country with a bunch of frowning humans walking in the street. The schedule of the people is so predictable. Waking up early in the morning , rush off to work, doze in the bus, stay in the office for hours until evening time and then back we are at home. And guess what, we start working at home again and sleep late in the night. A monotonous and anti-social lifestyle. No wonder wife usually complain that the man spend too little time on the family. A rich country it may seems, but it's terrible to live in.

The life of a student is also the same. Going to school early in the morning, flag raising, study till mid afternoon, having CCA, remedials, extra lesson until evening time and get stuck in the stupid jam, do homework at home, sleep late at night. Can you blame us if we have no time to sleep or fork out time to even socialise? Do we have time to have personal freedom? Apparently the government don't understand that. What workaholics they are. For the part on studying, i do not deny its importance. However, what exactly is CCA for? Co-Curriculum Activity. I find it extremely redundant and useless, learning nothing out of it. Wasn't it supposed to be based on our interest. Why are we rejected when the activity should be based on us. Is it fully focusing on getting talents for competition instead. Doesn't it contradicts its definition of "activities which interests the students". Its ironic. We are forced into something we do not enjoy and yet it says, for our interests. How realistic life is.

Normal Humans can live up to 80 plus years old. With around 21 years spent on education, the next 30 to 40 years on work, how much time are we left for personal freedom? 20 years for freedom at a very old age? By that time, we will most probably have wrinkled skins, bad bone, leg pain etc and we will be caged up at home to rot. We will never be able to enjoy life. Why exactly is life so fast paced in Singapore. The society is so pragmatic. Pragmatic is both a positive and negative adjective. Pragmatic allows us to be ahead of time, but it also show the people the truth of reality. How harsh it can be.

It's good to be born in Singapore, having such a advanced place to live in. But people are pampered from these riches! Do people even do work by themselves now? Look at how many maids people at home! Look at how the people suffered in Africa, hardly any food to survive on. But here we are, taking everything for granted.

I emphasize alot on personal freedom. It's also unlucky to be born here. The pace is very fast and busy. I would rather live in a rural area, plant crops, build houses, fish fishes and have no riches, than being in such an urbanised place. Technology is beneficial to the society. Being advanced is beneficial to the country. However we need to face reality and realise that the will be a turning point in any rise, as when there is benefits, there is also negative impacts. Such improvements spoilt the human living in this world. It tramautize our mind and put alot of pressure on us.

People says its good to be here, but i choose to keep silent and not reply, as is my purpose of life to live and die with no meaning, or understand the greatness of this humongous world?

2009-01-24T18:53:00.005+08:00

:D

xD

饶了我吧。

就算不当，我也不要做了。

生活真辛苦。

你有passion，但我是因为obligation才做。

我真的受不了！

just strip me off my post please.

stop the mundane meetings.

刚开始还好，但现在差不多天天见，也会厌倦。

停，停，停。。。

obligation is not love.

再怎么尝试，都改不了这个事实。

Life

2008-09-30T19:01:00.002+08:00

Hollow...

I'm feeling so god-damned hollow.

my life feel like its being ripped out from my body.
isn't that me?
the empty and aimless person.

stress.
is pouring.
overflooding my senses.
not cause of exams.
but some idiotic afflitiation.

Regret, best word to described my mood.
No longer am i that innocent year 1!
Maybe its time for a change.

where am i heading.
no aims.
no goals.
no important people.
no life.
school no longer mattered.
friends are just a word to describe a companion studying in the same school.
no they dont't understand me, like how i can't understand them.
we may say best friends forever,
but to me,
thats a lie.
i don't believe in time.
i just wanna grow up quickly and get over with this life.
its so freaking pointless.
there isn't anything to look forward to.
nothing...

nothing...

...

Maybe its time to change to a new mask...

Maybe one less interactive.

more stoic

a cold-blooded ice cube

who doesn't give any more dam.

...

..

.

Hollow...

2008-08-19T21:34:00.002+08:00

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I just find this kind of cool.
Oh well.
Yay. all science down.
SS down.
English down.
Tommorow is chinese and History.
I just so want to sleeep.

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Common test week rocks, at least no cca no pe and no trainings.
its totally blisss.
whoo.
naruto rocks(i meant the anime)
fanfiction rocks.
kakashi rocks
i think i like sakura too. :S

lols.i should go studying le.

After exam so much thing to do.
haiz.
Like?
Go purchase uniform for ppl.
Train here train there.
AGI.zzz

kk
sayonara

i heard wounds can heal within time.but is it true?

2008-04-22T22:43:00.006+08:00

We.Them.The.Day.That.I.Detest.

just happen to chance this.

permanent?temporary?
wounds can heal within time, but can a scar heal?can a broken heart be mended?

2008-04-21T21:30:00.002+08:00

Now. i will definitely post about that fateful day. the day of no return.
the day by which i will never forget.
though people have been telling me to post on that exact same day.
i decided not to.
if not you'll be seeing my blog full of emotional criticisms and feelings.
i wouldn't want people to know too much about me anyway.
OK the day.-19/04/08-zone 9 first aid compeitition
reach school at 6.30
gate not open.
went in
slack
do drill
wear uniform
gel hair
prepare stuff
take photo
pep talk
off we go to waiting rooom.
we were NA1.
First up.
Footdrill.
much better than what we did in hwachong comp?though i screw once.wrong leg de
den next
first aid.
Olivia did cpr:( iwaana do.but cant cause i end up getting the least serious casualty-.-
Eat lunch
wait very long before homenursing
and what the fuck
HIV VIRUS?
and they dare say it to be common knowledge?
ok fine i dunno anything about that.
but i just anyhow reassure.
blah.
wasn't really smiling.
moody.
kinda screwed?
den went back waiting room.
all the way till the fateful timing.
the prize presentation.
in between.
i heard from people about other team stuff.
i am pissed and pityful for them.
never did i realise what is instored for us.
ambulance clean sweep
best cpr,best leader,best long case,best short case,bbest toc,overall champion.
g-o-o-d-j-o-b
nursing cadet felicia team 3rd runner up. not bad.but screw the officer.haha
and we lost.jesslyn team lost.
i cannot believe my ears.
wanted to cry.
but i feel nothing.
feel kinda numb.
the trainers was like telling us that the judges were biased.
but by then.nothing can enter my ear already.
it can only fit in:''we lost''
Emotional content.Go away if you don't want to hear my ranting
i am really sad, pissed and fucked up.
why can people{JUDGE} be so biased and wanna "gang up" to win rv.
the judges sucks la.
how can they be so bloodly blind.
i totally cant stand it anymore.
WILL A CHEMICAL JUST KILL U when u touch it.
PLEASE NAME 1. IF U CAN. DEN ok lo. U CAN'T RIGHT, DEN U HAVE 0 RIGHTS TO BOOMBOOMBOOM jesslyn team de people. asshole la. make people die for what.
give them no chance.
and who will saved an unconscious casualty?
make use of the chance to kisss him? by doing cpr.
please la.must see whether he got breathing and pulse rate first 1 right. and somemore later u anyhow do kill him.
AND WHO SAY CPR CONFIRM CAN REVIVE. U GO SEE STATISTICS LA.
HOW MANY PEOPLE REVIVE FROM CPR HARH?
toot.
ALL THE JUDGES SUCKS LA. except for 1 or 2?
THE BLOODY HOME NURSING JUDGE ALSO.
ASSHOLE.
I DUN CARE WHO I INSULT ALREADY LA.
FUCK THEM.
and U.stupid national council person.my knowledge more then u la. u so limited de information. stupid kia. go kill jesslyn team. i hate u
and U.stupid zone COMMISIONER.
biased towards other.give rv lousy marks.
PEOPLE WHO WATCH THE CASE. KNOW WHO ARE BETTER LA.
OK FINE.NOW IS THE REAL EMO STUFF.
i hate to lose. i really hate it. my tears start flowing out after a while.
trainers and people keep saying its unfair.
and we are their champions in their heart.
but its not enough for me.
it hurts.
i dunwan to lose.
i want the champion.
i want to go nat comp.
so what if we are the champion in our heart.
we will never be in fact.black and white the champion.
we are denied of all chance to breathe or to show our potential.
they say we can pawn others in footdrill comp.
but so what.
its never the same.
footdrill comp will not be like first aid comp.
it will never be like it.
the feeling is different.
and it can never mend my broken heart.
i dunwanna leave my team yet.
idun wan it to end here.
all that we work for.
ended.
just because we aren't given equal chances.
where is justice.
where is god.
where is the person that can save me out of this horrible world when im in my most hurtful state.
things can never change.
i know.
no matter what.
im just a small small lance corporal.
even if i get to be a trainer.
even if i force my junoir to win next year.
its no longer the same.
its a fact
its a history.
that rvsjab'y3'o8.
lost away nursing cadet and adult.
is there anything i can do.
why does it always has to be our batch.
why.why.cant it wait till next year.
we dont have much chances already
my heart is simply too selfish aren't i
but my heart cant take the shock too.
i really wanna cry out loud.
but it still hurt after dat.
i'll never believe the phrase that we will feel better after crying all out.
its totally wrong.
i believe. i am not able to survive this torment.
i lost all hope.
all faith.
all justice.
in what i used to believed in, loved(which i only currenly discovered) in.
i doubt i will wanna join another one.
not mentally prepared for another set back.
when the people never change.
when we noe there's no hope no matter how good we are.aren't we.
they are the one.
who determine our fate.
they chose to crush it.
it hurts.
really hurts.
what should i do.
people don't understand me or have the same view as me.
maybe it'll be all over soon.
but i wonder when.....
19/04/08-the day when a scar is left.

2008-04-10T18:06:00.000+08:00

64 words

Speed test

2008-04-08T20:43:00.002+08:00

im sad.real sad.wanna cry.
so unlucky today.
napfa test. i did badly
and somehow i just broke down.
imean i never really care about napfa.
but i dun noe why.this is the 1st time i cried coz of physical education.
mebbe im changing.
to i dunno what.
im really sad.
but its today.
that i found out
i actually have many good friends.
thank you.
people.
i love you.
and obviously.
kakashi too

ILOVE HATAKE KAKASHI

2008-04-07T22:04:00.001+08:00

IM TOTALLY OBSESSED WITH HIm.
I CANT STOP THINKING.
HE'S SO DAMM HANDSOME.
AND I'vE GOT A NEW CURSOR ON HIM.SO COOL RIGHT.
ahhh.i gotta go study bio.
kakashi rocks
bio sucks:(
kakashi~my idol.

2008-04-06T18:42:00.001+08:00

he rocks

2008-03-29T21:23:00.002+08:00

Hello.Today was flag day.
Tiring but sastified.
So little $$$
oh well. at boon lay ma.
haha and then went to hq return the tin.and went to eat with
jesslyn,bingle,eve,annies,phyllis,zhixiang and ningyi
lol we got a new family.
Head of family
Ningyi-lao pa aka father
Zhixiang- lao ma aka mother
the so called children
Phyllis-Da jie. Sister#1
Eve-Er jie. Sister#2
Bingle-San jie. Sister#3
Jesslyn-Si jie. Sister#4
Png Hang-Wu jie?Mei?. Sister#5

2008-03-24T22:10:00.002+08:00

HOMEWORKS
1.CHINESE GONG HAN
2.LANG ARTS WS
3.CHEMISTRY NOTES
4.PHYSICS ASSIGNMENT
5.PHYSICS R&W{APPARENTLY IT SUPPOSED TO BE DUE TODAY)
6.POLISH BOOTS(THIS IS NOT A HMWK)

i simply lovelovelovelove to play runescape
and crunchyroll tooo.
<33 there's cca tmr-__-. Full-uniform somemore.
HAIX.
Like they will ever let us take a break.
and i hate UNIFORM INSPECTION.
alwaes same question 1.
lalala byebye

2008-03-23T21:14:00.006+08:00

Hello People.
AS USUAL.
I DID NOT DO MY HOMEWORK.
TILL THE LASSST MINUTE.
so here it goes
HOMEWORKS DUEE TMR
1.Chinese du hou gan{ i don't know whether need to do}
2.Review on a book
~~3.Complete certain sections on expository text notes~~
4.Langarts homework invovling newsweek
~~5.Maths Ws 1 Homework section~~
6.Chemistry R&W
~~7.Chemistry Class exercise __?~~
8.Physics assignment qs 1-4
~~9.Physics mini ws{as i called so}~~
10.Physics R&W practice

that's all.
i realise.
YEAR 3 is HELLLLLL
as compared to year 2
I GUESS.
THATS THEEE BIGGGGG DIFFFF
WONDER WHATS INSTALLED WHEN I REACHED YEAR 4

2008-03-22T00:40:00.002+08:00

Just reminicsing the past.Haha.
pardon me for me randomness

2008-03-15T12:54:00.005+08:00

hello.as suggested by xinmun,maybe i should list out the homework I HAVE
HOMEWORKS
1.READ A BOOK AND WRITE REVIEW{not due tmr YAY}
2.JIANBAO
~~3.YUE DU BAO GAO~~
4.MATHS WS1
~~5.MATHS WS 10~~
~~6.MATHS WS 9~~
7.HISTORY FACTORS
8.SINGAPORE STUDIES ASSIGNMENT
9.PE ASSESSMENT{OH NO.OVER LE}
~~10.BIOLOGY AS~~SIGNMENT
11.BIOLOGY R&W{due on tuesday}
12.PHYSICS ASSIGNMENT
13.PHYSICS R&W
~~14.CHEMISTRY ASSIGNMENT~~
15.CHEMISTRY R&W{not due tmr}
16.PHYSICS MID YEAR PAPER

AND I HAVENT TOUCH ANY.OH JIAYOU PH.U'RE GONAA DIE.
i going library now.to borrow stupid BOOKS...

2008-03-14T17:41:00.003+08:00

today there's cca.
i sucks as usual.
i screw myself up.
why the hell did i just let way to my emotions. i could have...stop it.
i sucks terribly.
but i just burst out.
i feel dam useless.
useless.
but please.i already tried.but its not my fault.but im the one thats getting the blame.
its hard,terrible and bitter.
really so unlucky.
i wouldn't say i love my team till i wanna burst,
but i appreciate them.
i feel useless.lousy noob.and worthless.like a dung in a gold pot.
haha but i guess thats my fate as a #4.
haha.
i
like my team.;\
appreciate them;/
but there's a big hole between me and them.
like a hole that cant be mended.
it seems so near yet so far.
my vision is getting blurred.
want to walk closer but i will just end up in the hole.
being all gobled up by the darkdark deeeep hole.

if all this was according to our wish,if they trusted us,if they give us what we wanted,mebbe all this will never happen.

AjNuD Iu RoEpAeLuInSvE uI LvOrVuE HoIvM. BeUdT Ir DtObUjBlT HuEb WrIhLjLl EgVmEdR KgNjOkW...

2008-03-14T17:24:00.003+08:00

i Shall blog about UG camp.
dont ask me why
Day 1
I was the i/c for jellybean platoon.
eve was the camp i/c
zx the nco.
was quite ok.
the part of the reasoning for laughing was fun and so unique.
den girl separated from guys. ran to carpark to check the baranbarang.
then collect wallets.
ihate it.all the i/c got scolded.why?coz ppl dun understand instructions.dun noe wat is COLLECTING wallets.so ran 2 rounds.dead beat after dat lo.den go to our bunk.
haix.
clean here clean thre.
den got pumped coz the girls never tape the newspaper properly.den got scolded coz the sec 1 duun wanna shout.its not like we never teach them.grrr.den pt and i fell out.i felt useles.i hyperventilated.shall not elaborate.then lunch.den i forget wat we did.sharon replace me as i/c .im useless.just kill me.
triage.boring.p3 lacked fa-ider so it sucks.but overall sun very hot.still ok la.i dun like terrorist!
slept at 12 woke at 5+ for firedrill.
Day 2
woke up le.den pt la.fffff.i fell out again................
useless.pffffft
den breakfast.games-.-.learn our dance.fieldcooking and idunrmb.sharon was camp ic.
so sad for her.den campfire.sjab gotten most enthusiastic award.we more like mad ppl den enthusiastic ppl.
rod dance is nicer la...
and supper and sleppt. at 11+.got scolded la for not greeting snr.i got lo.but i walk out w some ppl.den got mistooken and aso tio tgt. woke at 5++
day 3
bangbangbang firedrill so loud la.
yuheng camp ic den got triage.charlene took over as triage ic. and we did triage 3 times.coz first 2 is screwed.this triage rocks most.loveeeee it.so fun;D though tiring.lovelove.dennn i dun rmb.just now j-e-l-ly-bean got best platoon.gooood.
jelly beanbeanbean is a beannnn
jelly beanbeanbean has wonnnn.
hooorayyyyyy!.

I HATe myself.IM USELESS.others can why i cannot.just kill me alright.
pffffffffft.grrrrrrrrrrrr slash me.chop me.kick me punch me.i hate pnghang.

p.s. i rather do 100 circuit den running

2008-02-18T23:56:00.004+08:00

其实，

我发觉，

自己还是忘不掉。。。

告诉我，

我到底要怎么做。

看见现在的自己，

变化多端。

但那也是没办法的吧。

不对，

我还有个地方还没变，

那就是我的x。。。

2008-02-18T23:24:00.003+08:00

Hey i realise its been like 3 bloody,cool, woots year with my SQUAD in sjab.
so mebbe i should write a sentence or so to the people in comp teams?
ok so let's go down the list.
Firstly toooooo.........................................

EVE- i lovelovelovelove you.you are bloodily nicenice. im really so glad to be in a same team as u.Super duper nice and fun to hang out with. wahhaha nice bullying too.pls look forward to bean sprout, cucumber,chocolate,potato and................................................................ STrawberry,marshmallow.mwahahhaha.eve is good to be a listening ear.

OLIVIA-SIAO "char bo" hahaha.so 'cute' la u. quite fun at times. quite lovable sometimes. just that i find u too short. sorry la. i like have a interest for shorties.hahahha.my #2 lo. though not very close, but is a team. quite easy to get along ba.:D

CHARLENE-ooooooooooo.the boyboy of the team,i dunno where i infer 1. i did partially listening.hahah.a xiong xiong woman that is 'wenrou'.:x. haha quite funny at times.look cool.is pretty easy going?haah. my leader lo.if i never been in the team. mebbe i will not really be closer abit to her or even like know her at all.hahah

XINMUN- omg the another 1 and only SOTSOT spoiled ROBOT. HEHE someone who loves cucumber and salads.i love her HAIR COZ IT SEEMS SO NICE TO TOUCH.no offense but it is COOL!. i love the spiking.wooo. eccentric which makes her fun ,outgoing and WOOTS haha nice.the laughing machine!!hehehehe!

JESSLYN-super wenrou,itink? she like temperament.somtime sot sometime wenrou.but she like eve. BEING NICE. EASY GOING.FUN.she's cute too.just abit too black???HAHAH.but she's eccentric at times till i will have goosebumps.but she really very nice lo.hahahahhaha mebbe she's the twin of eve;D the short and moderate twins:D

BINGLE-once known as the vibrating machine.but not really anymore? haha can be reallll serious at times. and siao.and noob.and owned. and BISH!.ok im laming. he's quite goood condition for a boy la.hahah just that he's 'ENGAGED' in his love. rather sensitive at time? but i dam shocked he chairperson. see how popular he is.haha.bingle is the most decent guy in the squad.

YONGEN-known as a pro in studies. ok i love her being very precise and hardworking when doing things.hahah.she's easy to get along if u noe her well.wahahha but she talks too FAST IN ORAL!.SLOW DOWN.haahaha.creative gurl. pretty nice. and u will like herif u noe her well.

YUTING-ooooh. i think she's like a pretty decent girl.CLEVER.HAHAHA.i shall find her if i dunno aniting. super clever.she's pretty good to me and i like hanging out with her.fun,nice,though quiet.one word.reallly pro.once seconded the level can? pro rite.hang out with her.studys++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++

ADAM- the coordinator.some ppl dun really like to hang out with him. actually i find him quite ok. he's quite pro in s&s really. just that he speaks CHOOCHOOO!.hahahahah.andand he's our coordinator!haaa.mebbe i tink if we hang out more with him,we might discover more of his good points rite.

and everyone.
JIAYOU for upcoming hwa chong mock comp and ZONE COMP
best wishes and we definately can do it.
with lots of love-png hang

#4COEPYH!<.3 PNGHANG(:

2008-02-18T23:17:00.002+08:00

No offense.
I hope i dont offend anyone in any post.
haha.prettY ALLL-right day.
i got CHEATED AGAIn.
bad history day*shake head*
boring day
there's biology tomorow.
iwanna get back my paper.
Not oral please.
-.-
Eve haven't find back her file.
i wanna watch movie with her soonsoonsoon.
but kinda mission impossible coz of the trainings?
but eve is nice.:DDDDDDD
someone else is nice.:// rather nice.(amazingly huh?)(i'm refering to a GUY)
#1 & #2 are quite lovable at times.hohoho.
and my claassmates are easy toget along.woohoo.
fun nice guaiguai class.
happyhappy.better den last year:)
seriously love 3e'o8, no troublemakers.:D
and things are going into the correct path already.
and i think im more socialise wit guys.which is PRETTY BIG IMPROVEMENT;D
wahaha
ok la
some misc on the bottom.rather reliable?

What Png Hang Means

You are influential and persuasive. You tend to have a lot of power over people.

Generally, you use your powers for good. You excel at solving other people's problems.

Occasionally, you do get a little selfish and persuade people to do things that are only in your interest.

You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people.

You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts.

You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals.

You are deeply philosophical and thoughtful. You tend to analyze every aspect of your life.

You are intuitive, brilliant, and quite introverted. You value your time alone.

Often times, you are grumpy with other people. You don't appreciate them trying to interfere in your affairs.

You are truly an original person. You have amazing ideas, and the power to carry them out.

Success comes rather easily for you... especially in business and academia.

Some people find you to be selfish and a bit overbearing. You're a strong person.

You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection.

You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive.

You have the classic "Type A" personality.

What's Your Name's Hidden Meaning?

2008-02-17T22:07:00.002+08:00

I'm not running away anymore.
Whatever now.
Not hiding anything
Like it or not.
Having lots of homework left to do.Now already 10.08.still got 7 more homework for myself.
And i have to run tomorrow morning. What the fuck can.
Dont think u all change the name to a better name means its different
U ALL NOOB.
Use disciplinary action to put down us huh?
NOOB!
go and see other schools la. tHE MOE already dROP this IDEA OK!
most school dun have le.
rv leh
ACT PRO LA.
NOOB.
LATER I COMPLAIN U DEN U NOE.DAM U.
enough of being pissed.
cooling down
coooooooool down
c-o-o-l d-o-w-n
okok.that's all.
goinn to do homework.
bye

2008-02-12T22:11:00.003+08:00

Read it if u want.dun read if u dun.hope it nevver offends but pls be mentally prepared.

I've realised. that i only post a post when im down in my deepest moments, where i wannna cry out loud or when im very happy.
been so long since i ever posted anything
im just sad,demoralised,feeling pathetic and wanting to cry.
i can feel the sour in my heart now.
whatever...
i seriously dunno what i want.
im feeling very distant
from them...
i think im some one who have some IQ but 0 EQ.
i just cant seem to talk well at all.
what do u all want me to do.
i seriously cant stand it anymore.
i cant stand that abc is always doing things it/his/her own way and insisting on it UNREASONAbLY.(sometimes) acting really like a someting and thinking she/he/it is right.and most of her THINKING are u noe non-logical and not so correct. i dunthink she really deserve it...
i cant stand bca alwaes being so insensitive about EVERYthing, just act cute and think that it/he/she's right, can order ppl around , and advising ppl when he/it/she doesnt noe aniting.grrr,hey seriously i tink she/he/it is such a INSENSITIVE FREAK OR hypocrite? mebbe she just doesnt noe when to do someting correctly but she is unreasonable too.
i cant stand them cracking idiotic jokes and alwaes being not serious.
like whenever we are supposed to be serious.WHY cant u all be serious.
IS IT REALLY SO FUNNY?
OR is it because u all wannna ap?
cant u all just control?
i feel hurt when u all oppress me with ur authority as me being inferior coz im just it, and since u all crack jokes, fine i CRACK, but when i crack, u all think im not serious.
its like WTFFFFF u.pardon my vulgarities.
but really... do u really have any idea how much pain it feel to be oppress by someone that u do not think really has that authority or rights or IS a good example...
cant stand cda as she likes to flaunt, stop flaunting can?
everyone have their failures and ups in lives.
if u put in enough effort, u can achieve it.
stop blaming that u have no time.
like i have some time, why not u.
mebbe u shuld change ur thinking ok?
cant stand cua,hey u seriously have a biased way of thinking, idunnwanna say why.
cant stand ssx, coz she has the same attitude as cua

i used abc to vent my anger and at the same time not letting ani1 noe about who im talking about.
feel real distant.
mebbe that's because of our personality rite?
like haha history mao ze dong. cult of personality...
hey like them and hate them.
what can i say.
but they can improve seriously.
dun be too u noe taking things for granted.
if u wanna be obeyed , show that u are a good example. if not i will just rebel.
writing this does not mean i have no bad points too but i just wannna write my thoughts. i noe myself-a freak unkind stingy dishonest jealous and revengeful.
really hope hope to be closer with them.
if thats not possible..
then haha

mebbe its the end of it.
the feeling that is gone,
the thought tat is gone.
the ambition which once flew high,
dashed away in a flick of an eye.
not possible anymore...
without any passion or any likings
due to the demoralisation and also the mood swings
...

well goodbye,really hope to mend it... but is it even possible anymore?
my heart no longer is there for it.........
may god bless ...........

ps.inot christian

2008-01-06T13:21:00.000+08:00

I've been real bored today.
Didn't have anything to do except FOR homeworks.
Looking at the mediacorp websites and all the ACTORS/ACTRESS.
I seems so interested nowadays.
OOPz, later my results drop :/
haha
the star awards was alright.
Not that nice.
all talks and talks.
lol.
im so lamed...
ok nth to type le

2008-01-03T20:53:00.000+08:00

I'm been wondering.
Am i really going to survive through this year?
Having trainings and more subjects to take.
Having to learn ,study and improve MORE.
While seriously trying to juggle my time
It's as if that i'm grasping hardly for air.
But i'm just going to die and degenerate.
Trainings are really tiring me out.
I never seems to be improving.
the stress is increasing.
I dont have time to go study my first aid manual too.
i feel guilty.
i wannna get the champs.
i wanna win.
its like trying to catch a fish with a net that has a hole.
I SERIOUSLY WANT TO IMPROVE MY ACADEMIC results this year.
gotten to know some of the subject and form teacher yesterday and today.
some was all right
some was fun.
some really scares me off.
like the history teacher.
he expect all of us to be responsive.
i mean, by nature. u all should noe. i NEVER responded in class unless CALLED
but i will also stutter there.
I dunno HOW AM I GONNA SURVIVE THROUGH IT.
EVEN IF HE FORCE ME TO RESPOND.
I have to force MYSELF to pick up my COWARDLY COURAGE
HOWEVER.
I LOVE HISTORY.
I REALLY LOVE IT.
no matter what.
i will never regret choosing it.
i will not opt out of it, not under any circumstances.
...
hey god up there.
please
look after me
bless me
help me
teach me
improve me
change me
love me
and finally the most importantly

lead me to my interest and of course, give me the courage i have always been searching for.

nothing will make me give up now.

i will
put in all my efforts.
for studies and trainings

sayonara,
my dearest games...xD

2007-12-30T15:50:00.000+08:00

Christmas wish will Never come true.xD
(contents below are not suppose to be seen;) )

May i be sad, but i will strive.
For next year,I WILL PAWN!jk
sadsadsadsadsad and unwillingly.
just sadded.
Dont hate anyone, just jealous.
BUT I WILL work harder.
AND i will owned them

2007-12-27T18:38:00.000+08:00

I'm feeling really helpless.
Tears will flow for i don't know why.
I seriously do not wanto continue anymore.
I'm really very scared of her.
I'm scared, and i dontknow how am i going to survive.
No matter how tough training may be,i can endure.
But i cannot endure the feelings in my heart.
It is making me break down.
The more i think about it, the more i can't stop myself.
I can't imagine having to go through it till march...
I wanna quit.
I dont wanna continue.
I do not know whether im wrong, but cant she be a bit more u noe, unfierce?
I know its just human personality, but it just seems like knives protruding into my heart.
It's painful...
It's hard...

Maybe all will be better if i just keep enduring it.
i seriously don't know what to do...

Things will be so much better if im not in it....
i dontwanna continue anymore.
but i'll just pull myself
and not fail our trainers.

2007-12-11T22:51:00.000+08:00

Things i ate today

Seaweed shaker
FRIES.
I SIMPLY LOVE IT
I WANNA EAT THIS TMR

being randomrandomrandom

2007-12-10T09:17:00.000+08:00

Hi morning people.
seldom so free.
so i shall blogblogblog.
hahaha
ahhh stupid i dunwan be an IC!!@!@@!(@!&@%!$@
andandand
there platoon meeting later.
wtf.
hw mani session le la
organise so mani for wtf
haix
sadsad
i declare i hate bnco

2007-12-09T17:04:00.000+08:00

im sad.
really sad.
why am i the platoon i/c for 1st day of camp.
2nd time le.
this world is unreasonable.
hell this...
5 more day to doom...
hahah.arent this nice?

2007-12-03T16:34:00.000+08:00

Beeen decades since i last posted.
Can't blame me.Everyday either trainings or Basic nco course.
I'm seriously gonna die from over-streess man.
I seriously hate basic nco course !!
training is alright.
Nursing sucks.
Footdrill still ok
First Aid is fun
BUT EVERYTHING will be ok without some ppl.
Let me recall bout basic nco course.
Err first day, regristation day, still ok,no much scolding.
1st course day. i rmbered.i platoon i/c. not fun at all.
coz duty officer is lho chen yang. he scoldscoldscold. all i/c keep get pumped pumped pumped. totally sucks.
Then got ppl talked bout uniform, koto, ranks and whatever...
well, its worth the experience i guess.
Then 2 course day, Got footdrill at first. FREAKINGLY BORED PLEASE.
den lecture lecture and lectures. driving me crazy le la.
bored.punishment aso got. sian.dam they can.
3rd course day,TOC lo. i dundare volunteer, coz.....
haha nvm...
and its quite alright
toc quite fun i guess.
BUT MY POOOOR BOOTS.T_T
lol.ahaha. ok den nth else.
4th course day, toc exam, koto exam, basic theory exam.
toc,basic theory super easy.
i scared fail koto oni.
sian
sian
sian
i failed 1nce le.dunwanna fail again
hope ppl bless me
haha
5th course day,
NURSING.i must say
ITS EXTREMELY BORED. atleast there's 1 fun instructor. who keep saying
BULLSHIT
hahahahahahaha so funny can. but lessson was bored
as USUAL
hahah but i tink the lunch is getting worst and worse.
walao have to help ppl eat. i so fat still help._.
6th course day, yesterday lo.
nursing again
bedmaking and etc.
super bored man
haix
i so pro. help to eat can.
hehehehehehheeh
ok la.at the expense dat im gonna become heavier.
hell this.
hate basic more and more.
haix.
camp is coming
just gonna hate it forever.
im so dreading it.
hell this.
i been crapping in this post.
shall not crap le
stop here.hahaha

2007-11-15T19:45:00.000+08:00

OHRIGHT.
IM REAL PISSED NOW.
FROM 123miLLION TO A PAUPER WITH ONI 10,000 MESOS.
HELL THIS.
IM REAL PISSED.
I HATE MYSELF
HELL TIS
MEBBE I SHALL JUST MEMORISE MY NURSING NOTES NOW.
I GONNA QUIT MAPLE.
I GUESS

2007-11-10T21:20:00.000+08:00

Hi.Been ages since i last posted.
Today was erm NCO COURSE regristration day.
OK I DECLARE IT wasn't realllly nice.
I'm in the platoon venus.
quite ok. BUT ITS LIKE.err so quiet?y no one likes to volunteer de?
ok den we just move tis move tat.
den i found out being an ic is TERRIBLE.
You have to greet whoever u meet.....
den you have to lead ur platooN?!?!
crap meat la....
im so scared now.
ok later u do aniting wrong
kena punish pumping
every ting aso got........
suaysuaysuay.
den last parade
i was shocked
saw EVE as the u noe course ic?
AHHA laughing my guts out.
somemore she next week aso course ic... AHHA
den im chosen as VENUS IC NEXT WEEK.
CRAAP MEAT LAAAAA.
IMAGINE SEE EVERY SIR den berhenti.
GOOD AFTERNOON SIR.
PERMISSION TO CARRY ON SIR.
YES SIR.
WALAO
somemore must lead platoon
must do tis do tat. do wrongly den say BB liao...
i really dunwan come lo.
when they called my name its was like pHENg hang?
den i was like is that me. i lag for a moment before replying yes SIR
coz venus oni 1 pheng hang rite._.
wtcwtc.
ok la ok la
i suay
BUT EVE MORE SUAY.

HAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAH

2007-10-31T22:27:00.000+08:00

Hi people.
I've been mapling
I'm SOSOSO LUCKY!
I jackpot 1 fairfrozen weapon attack 102. then i sold for 105m.WOW.thats crazy right.
ok lar i took a screenshot for me to admire.
ONI LOOK AT THE MESOS PLEASE.the rest are crap.

HAPPY!

2007-10-31T07:39:00.000+08:00

Wahahha.
Here to post.
Oh well, i'm going to english remedial soon.
My stupid sister keep crying and woke me up...
its 7.35 in the morning.Gosh..i'm gonna leave at 8.15.
i haven change,haven pack.ahahahah.
wahahhaha.I'm still mapling.wohahaha.
Anybody want sponser me in maple?
haha.o'right.. im just joking.

I don't wanna go><.

2007-10-30T11:19:00.000+08:00

Stress Rule my world now...

Get away from me please><

2007-10-26T23:39:00.001+08:00

Holidays are here but i don't know whether is this even called a HOLIDAY.
I mean its like so boooked and i'm sure that i won't really be able to get a breather...
There's chinese remedial,english remedial and even cca.Not forgetting some chalets too... I mean its like i rather go school and study everyday.Seeing teacher is much nicer than knowing the fact that i have a holiday and yet im so busy.It's so totally crap...Oh ya and i think i will definately miss all the teachers that taught me. I will miss Mrs khoo,miss tiu,miss cheng,miss tan,mrs tan,mr ho,mr chia,all e science teachers and all that taught me la... too much to named alll.I mean is like... they really made an impact on my life...They let me acquire knowledge.They are the source of my success, being able to go into secondary 3.Really have to thank them you know.
And furthermore, i enjoyed studying nowadays. its not as bad as i used to think.
Hey thanks teachers.:D
I also wanna be grateful to some friends. I mean you know i was really looking forward to being separated somehow... i wouldn't say my class rocks. but 1 thing is for sure... i like my class.haha.:D jiayou people... in everything that we do... x)

2007-10-26T20:46:00.000+08:00

我会想你的！

D;

also i will miss germaine ng yuhui and gladys cheong yuan teng.:D

2007-10-25T15:14:00.000+08:00

YO PEOPLE.YAY iM SO HAPPY.
i've gotten GPA 3.2!!
wahhaha.and now i can take triple science and history.
WHEEE
im so dam happy.
but im aso quite unlucky..
fancy me jackpot chinese and language arts remedial.
i so pro lo.
GPA 3.2 still tio remedial ahha.
coz my languages sucks ma.
now got 1 session crash lo
den i dunno is should go english or chi remedial.
howhow...
and somemore cca so mani...
wahh my holiday all booked.
its not holiday.
is siao ding dong

2007-10-24T20:12:00.000+08:00

不要走好吗？

hop off to do chinese hmwk

2007-10-23T16:54:00.000+08:00

oh well, got into 恶补团。
if anyone don't understand ,then i shall explain.
Basically its for people who have a C5 and below for chinese...
O'well we just have to attend the 补课 like once every week of the holiday and hand in HOMEWORK.
I guess its pretty alright to me.Well i have nothing to complain,coz
anyway i was wanting to improve my chinese:D this saves me lots of trouble.
haha

oh ya,tooday went library
borrow books.
The 吴庆康 de 23:59 haha. 2 books leh
kindaaa thickk>.<
i sure wun be able to finish de lor.NOT to even say READ 1 page...
haha.nvm;D

o'well guess thats about it..
haha
shalll sign off here.
~pH-11~

你真得没事了吗？

2007-10-18T17:01:00.000+08:00

人生其实是非常丰富的。
分别只是在于我们如何看待它，
对待它与如何去面对。
人生难免有上，有下，
但我们应该用乐观的角度看待，
勇敢面对，
并且了解事情发生的原因。
总之，

人生是丰富的，
我们应该珍惜，
我们应该勇敢面对，
不要一次的挫折而被打倒，
加油！
我相信你能克服这个难关的。

但不管怎么样，
你不应该违背自己的感情，
如心情不好，想哭，
就哭。
想笑，就笑。
想杀人，就杀吧!
：D

也想谢谢你，
让我学到了这么多事情。

2007-10-17T15:48:00.000+08:00

hi.
Today while i was walking around after school,
i began to ponder over my results and myself.
i began to think deep and reflect.
i have decided
i have made a decision
i made a resolution
and i will definately try to work on it
i decided to improve on my languages.
i decided to change myself
i really hope i could do it.
and i will definately...

do my best

2007-10-15T18:05:00.000+08:00

HELLO, PEOPLE OUT THERE!
Long time no see.
I decided to BLOG.wahahha
den after tat gonna study study and study for first aid tmr.
i think i make a resolution not to sleep again:D
hehehe
aniwae.
im gonna post
about MY RESULTS.
WOOOTS
ok here goes

End-Of-Year RESULTS!
English = not very good.should be a b4.haha.but better den nothingbr>
Chinese paper 2 = 67.5/110{CAN U NOE HOW HAPPY I WAS!$@###)@}
chinese paper 1 = 60/90{lets try saying 3 cheers for ph..

Maths = 81.5/100{ANOTHER HAPPY SUBJECTS}

Science = 80/100 {EVEN MORE HAPPY}

History = 39/50 { WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO.cannot express my heartfelt happiness}

Geography = 53 half/80{hehe alright lar, i guess the most disapointing subject}

---------------------------------------------------------------------------------
hahaha dun bash me up coz i get quite a few a1s.i studied mar.hehehe
ok thats all.bye

2007-10-11T16:04:00.001+08:00

YAY.IM LUCKY.IM HAPPY.YAYAYAY!!!!WAHHAHAHA.WOOTS

2007-10-07T19:38:00.000+08:00

Haha.today i rotted at home again. Was playing maple,blogging,watching anime AND doing FLASH!{most of the time}sobs.even though i spend so much time. i only completed like 1/4 of it?
Anyway, my parents went out at 8am++ den they came back like 6.45pm? Well, my mom did come back at 1.30pm to pass me food and den they went out again.gosh why do they like going out so much.
But something nice is that. THEY GAVE ME SOME BELOVIEE PRESENTS.though i dun relli wear such stuff?

Guess what it is!open sesame:D

Nice right.Itcost 100+ according to my father.sobs.thanks!

My aunt give me de.:D:D:D:D

2007-10-03T16:19:00.000+08:00

WAH IM SO SERIOUSLY ADDICTED.WAKAKAKA.;D.love it.woots.im childish i noe.==

2007-10-02T23:01:00.000+08:00

YAY.WHEEE.YAY.WHEE.
END OF YEAR EXAM OVER.EOEOY.WOOTS.NOMORE.

2007-10-01T16:29:00.000+08:00

YO PEOPLE.
Long time no post.
HAHA
.back today.
YAY chinese test today.
WAS ALRIGHT
MANAGE TO FINISH IT IN TIME
WOOOTS.IM SUCH A "prO" hahahaha.
ANIWAE.
NOWADAYS.
IMMMM SOOOOOOO AdDDICTED TO maCHinE RObO ReSCuE.
YHAHAH
I KNow ITS kInDa lAmE BUT iTs SerioUSly QuiTE nICe.WHAHHA.....
AND.IF ANiOnE KnoW Whr TO DoWnLOAd It PLEASE TELLL ME. I sErIouSly Will APPREciatTE it.THANKS.
ANIWAE.
TMR LAST TEST.
SAD LAR.
AFTER TEST DEN will have CCA, den more stress.wah sian.
den will see results.
MORE SIAN.
damdamdam
den basic nco course.
CHAO SIAN.....
ok lar.
ending here.

PS.i hereby declare i disown-ed koh fangqi=..= good leh, now no more relationship.cant stand her lo...

Correct decision?

2007-09-29T00:29:00.000+08:00

Was it a correct decision?
Am i right to delete him? I never know...
i Dunno. but seriously. i do feel abit sad.
now i dont have anyother pppl that i can really confide with.
but conflicts occurs between us too frequently.
i donno.
i deleted him
as he said.
and he also deleted me.
welll i never knew...
i always wanted to delete him.
but a urge alwaes forced me not to...
i dunno why...
i never knew.
was it an appropriate decision...
maybe he was right....
maybe she was right too...
i just have to bear with it...
i dunno...
but one thing i know....
i reallly do feelll sadd....
*and i started singing*
~never really wanna know~
....haix.i guess sadness will only lingers in my life afterall...
no more good friend.no more good people
only sadness, hatred and loneliness...

2007-09-26T13:34:00.001+08:00

TODAY TEST SUCKS.
JIAYOU FOR THE REMAINDING TEST.
AND PLEASE.
GIMME BACK MY FREEDOM.
~deleted
I JUST WANNA BE ALONE

2007-09-23T09:35:00.000+08:00

Studying season~ i won't be posting often.;D
But 1 thing is for sure, i will study hard.=D

2007-09-19T21:35:00.000+08:00

Yo,don't feel like studying.Hohoho. So i played with paint.
Jiayou.mugging sucks

2007-09-18T17:11:00.000+08:00

Actions speak louder than words.
I been saying that i must study, but i did not in the end.
There's only 1 more week to the exam.
I guess i must start putting my words into actions.
if not i will regret forever......

2007-09-16T11:32:00.000+08:00

I CANT GET MYSELF TO STUDY!!!
I CANT
I CANT
IM BREAKING DOWN SOON~
WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH ME!

2007-09-15T23:21:00.000+08:00

~deleted~

2007-09-15T22:59:00.000+08:00

虽然我笑了，
但心里并不是这么想。
虽然说没怎么样，
但还是觉得很伤心。
不管自己怎么想要忘去它，
但心一定不会听我的指示，
在我身体里哭哭啼啼。
我并不恨任何人，
但别人为免不会很我。
虽然你们觉得并不怎么样，
但对我来说，
就像是拿一把刀来刺我。。。
我到底做错了什么。
如有我做出任何得罪你们的事，
请你们原谅。
。。。。。。。
真不知该说什么好，
但我也是人，
有感情。
现在心里一直感到一阵阵酸痛，
我真希望能忘记一切。
能用乐观的态度对待任何事情。

但我始终做不到，
要怪只能怪自己是个人，
而且是个有感情的人。。。

2007-09-15T22:41:00.000+08:00

I've decided to blog.=D haha, i can't find anything to blog about though but some random thoughts of the day...

Knowing the truth is hurtful.
Not knowing the truth is even hurtful..
知道真相后感到悲伤，
但不知道真相更悲伤。。

I just doesn't know why, but what's exactly wrong with me? I know no one is perfect, but i didn't do anything wrong, have i... But why, why am i being...

Keeping quiet will involve conflicts,
Not keeping quiet will also involve conflicts.

WHAT EXACTLY IS THIS WORLD.WHY IS IT SO TERRIBLE TO LIVE IN.
WHY CANT THERE BE NO EVIL AND BAD PEOPLE.
WHY
WHY
WHY
WHY MUST LIVE BE SO MISERABLE.
AND WHY
AM I BORN IN THE FIRST PLACE?
TO
SUFFER AND ENDURE THE PAIN OF BEING A MISERABLE MORTAL?

这世界并不好“住“。。。
真希望当初没人生下我，
也希望能自己活在自己的世界里。
活在一个自由自在的地方里。。。

2007-09-13T21:49:00.000+08:00

一次的努力，永远的幸福，从不后悔。
我一定会为这次考试加把劲，让自己不会有任何的后悔。
期待那一天的到来。

2007-09-12T17:47:00.000+08:00

Back from school again and i am here blogging in front of my computer. I'm always wondering why aren't i scared of failing my test. There's only 12 more day before the first end-of-year paper starts.Well, maybe i shouldn't talk too much about exams.Haha. Today was rather a reflective day as i got to know more about whatever subjects that we can opt to take in year 3. Listening to all those briefings really triggers me alot, i finally realise my interest and here i have all decided what i want to take. If possible i want to take triple science and history. If it's not possible , then i shall take biology and chemistry. Thinking back, i'm really wondering who would take physics and biology.Haha, i'm not biased but i guess most people will take chemistry at the very least.
All right, shan't continuing crapping about school, maybe i should just get random and talk about some other stuff. Well, nothing to crap about, guess my life is as boring as this. Haiz...
Sometimes i really wonder, what exactly is the thing that i actually enjoy...

2007-09-10T20:56:00.000+08:00

Name 25 people

1.Huimin
2.Fangqi
3.Jialing
4.Germaine
5.Gladys
6.Xinmun
7.Eve
8.Jesslyn
9.Jocelyn
10.Shuwei
11.Xiaoxu
12.Meilin
13.Olivia
14.Charlene
15.Leehui
16.Roxanne
17.Victoria
18.Zhenzhi
19.Seowrong
20.Bingle
21.Yongen
22.PngHang
23.Donghao
24.Weisi
25.Jingxian

What is an inside joke with #7?
(Eve)Errr,ermmm, errmmm eh, how i know?

What about #22?
(PngHang)Er, she's a nice person.Cause that's me!

Would you go out with #12?
(Meilin)Of course, she's nice to me=D

What's one word that describes #5?
(Gladys)OHMYGOD.she would say"No i dunwanna eat that!"

Would #4 look good with #25?
(Germaine,Jingxian)Of coz not, 1 so tallll, and 1 like microscopic level

Would you go out with #19?
(SeowRong)OOh,yeah duh, she's not bad wat

When is #11's birthday?
(Xiaoxu)err, idunno , i just met her in cid?

Are #3 and #25 BEST friends?
(Jialing,Jingxian)How wuld i noe, they never met before

Have you ever liked #21?
(YongEn)Errr, im not a les

Have you ever liked #13?
(Olivia)She has a stead liao.*erHmmm*

Have you ever liked #6?
(Xinmun)OF COZ, SHE PLAES AUDI WITH ME

Can you tell #17 anything?
(Victoria)Ya, Victoria, here's the consent form.

How much do you love #4?
(Germaine)-100%

How do you know #20?
(Bingle)errr, in stjohn? haha. he has vibrating mode ahah

How'd you meet #18?
(Zhenzhi)err, in the tv set , when there's a show called sadaku

What word comes to your mind when you hear #23's name?
(DongHao)OMG, the gammer

Have you ever had a crush on #11?
(Xiaoxu)err, no?IM A STRAIGHT

What about #2?
(Fangqi)omg, i will die before having acrush on her

Do you think #10 is hot?
(Shuwei)yeap

What's one word that describes #15?
(Leehui)ERrr,errr, nice?

What do you think #9 will be when he/she grows up?
(Jocelyn)errr, guitaristt

Give one random fact about #16.
(Roxanne)OMG, she and ***** is **** hahhaah

And #8.
(Jesslyn)errr, she is a charcoal, she's not humAN!!

And what about #1?
(Huimin)errm, u noe i own-ed her?

and #24?
(Weisi)OMG, she super nice can

What song does #14 relate to?
(Charlene)HOW WOULD I NOE?

What movie could #3 be in?
(Jialing)err, dancing movie hahahahah!

What famous person does/should #7 meet?
(Eve)err, Png Hang

What do you think of #10?
(Shuwei)Fun

Would #7 make a good couple with #16?
(Eve,Roxanne)No,they dun even noe each other

What about #23 and #5?
(Donghao,gladys)Never!1 game addict ,1 non gamer

And #2 and #20?
(Fangqi,bingle)errr, i tink they will quarrel 1st

Have you ever gone out with #9?
(Jocelyn)yeah, haha during chinese remedial

What about #20?
(Bingle)Errrr, no lar, he got erhmmm, u noe, o*L*i*v*i*A*

Has #4 ever liked you?
(Germaine)duh. i rejected her

What about #19?
(seowrong)Lol, i doubt so, she got bf de lehx

Do you know anyone who likes #24?
(weiSi)ohhh, mee!

Is #3 your friend? Why?
(Jialing)err yess, coz i like snOw

What # should #11 go out with next?
(xiaoxu)errrmm, dunnoe,

2007-09-10T20:15:00.000+08:00

Today marks the day that school reopened after a 1 week holiday. The holiday was a tiring one, with no break at all, from birthday celebrations to trainings to competition and then to doing loads of homeworks.Well, i guess teachers love to torture students by giving them alot of homeworks. HaHa, but i think they are trying to torture themself, imagine having to mark one whole stack of homework, one look and i think he or she can faint. I'm quite glad with myself actually, being able to complete all the homework, haha, except for 1, but it's quite a good achievement to me .=D
First day of school after holidays was really, i guess nice, as you only get to rot at home during holidays. Schools are fun to me, but not fun when there is oral's presentation etc, it somesort of give me the scare.School was as usual, teachers teaching and student almost falling asleep. Whahaha, alot people cut their hair, surprisingly, guess they want to have a new look to impress people.Haha. Today quite alright, go school,then go home,then go do CID and i'm still left with geography and science. But i don't think i will be able to finish it, considering that i'm such a lazy piggy.HoHOHo, i was suppose to be studying, but instead i decided to blog. Guess my spur of pouring out my emotionless emotion is huge. haha.
Well, i guess that's it for today. It was really great to have a blog, i guess.;D

I'm breaking down without you, you are my source of energy...

2007-09-09T22:40:00.000+08:00

HAHA.YAY.WOOTS
I finaally done my hmwk.TA~DA.
ok lar.except for 1 stupid geography ws.
and i oni send the geog essay today. omg i tink tanwanting gonna kill me.
haha.Urh~ no choice mar,everyday aso training.
and yesterday dunno whether sad or happi.
footdrill comp.
haha the day evvery1 so nervous so scared.
we did finish our drills, though with some mistakes.
ambulance-cchampion. they lucki mar
nursing sec 2-2nd runner up.we aso lucki.ahahha but very happi
nursing sec 3-1st runner up.wth they shuld get champion
wahlao alot ppl cry can, but i never .i guess im the emotionless type.
haix, wth , i duncare, i swear we are gonna help the senoirs own-ed the champions next year.Rest assured~ we Will,WE will do our best,no matter what!

2007-09-09T12:53:00.000+08:00

i was just randoming.no other thoughts

2007-08-29T19:31:00.000+08:00

2Destiny=D Jiayou TomOrrOw fOr E ReHeaRsAl.WE can DO IT!
i really hate,destest her!

2007-08-28T18:26:00.001+08:00

2007-08-28T17:32:00.000+08:00

一些在网上找到的名人名言~慢慢享受吧！
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人生应该如蜡烛一样，从顶燃到底，一直都是光明的。 —— 萧楚女

人生的价值，即以其人对于当代所做的工作为尺度。 —— 徐玮

路是脚踏出来的，历史是人写出来的。人的每一步行动都在书写自己的历史。 —— 吉鸿昌

春蚕到死丝方尽，人至期颐亦不休。一息尚存须努力，留作青年好范畴。 —— 吴玉章

但愿每次回忆，对生活都不感到负疚 —— 郭小川

人的一生可能燃烧也可能腐朽，我不能腐朽，我愿意燃烧起来！ —— 奥斯特洛夫斯基

你若要喜爱你自己的价值，你就得给世界创造价值。 —— 歌德

社会犹如一条船，每个人都要有掌舵的准备。 —— 易卜生

人生不是一种享乐，而是一桩十分沉重的工作。 —— 列夫·托尔斯泰

人生的价值，并不是用时间，而是用深度去衡量的。 —— 列夫·托尔斯泰

生活只有在平淡无味的人看来才是空虚而平淡无味的。 —— 车尔尼雪夫斯基

一个人的价值，应该看他贡献什么，而不应当看他取得什么。 —— 爱因斯坦

人只有献身于社会，才能找出那短暂而有风险的生命的意义。 —— 爱因斯坦

芸芸众生，孰不爱生？爱生之极，进而爱群。 —— 秋瑾

生活真象这杯浓酒，不经三番五次的提炼呵，就不会这样可口！ —— 郭小川

充满着欢乐与斗争精神的人们，永远带着欢乐，欢迎雷霆与阳光。 —— 赫胥黎

生活就是战斗。 —— 柯罗连科

为了生活中努力发挥自己的作用，热爱人生吧。 —— 罗丹

希望是附丽于存在的，有存在，便有希望，有希望，便是光明。 —— 鲁迅

沉沉的黑夜都是白天的前奏。 —— 郭小川

当一个人用工作去迎接光明，光明很快就会来照耀着他。 —— 冯学峰

东天已经到来，春天还会远吗？ —— 雪莱

过去属于死神，未来属于你自己。 —— 雪莱

世间的活动，缺点虽多，但仍是美好的。 —— 罗丹

辛勤的蜜蜂永没有时间悲哀。 —— 布莱克

希望是厄运的忠实的姐妹。 —— 普希金

当你的希望一个个落空，你也要坚定，要沉着！ —— 朗费罗

先相信你自己，然后别人才会相信你。 —— 屠格涅夫

不要慨叹生活底痛苦！---慨叹是弱者...... —— 高尔基

宿命论是那些缺乏意志力的弱者的借口。 —— 罗曼·罗兰

我们唯一不会改正的缺点是软弱。 —— 拉罗什福科

私心胜者，可以灭公。 —— 林逋

人人好公，则天下太平；人人营私，则天下大乱。 —— 刘鹗

自私自利之心，是立人达人之障。 —— 吕坤

如烟往事俱忘却，心底无私天地宽。 —— 陶铸

常求有利别人，不求有利自己。 —— 谢觉哉

一切利己的生活，都是非理性的，动物的生活。 —— 列夫·托尔斯泰

人的理性粉碎了迷信，而人的感情也将摧毁利己主义。 —— 海涅

无私是稀有的道德，因为从它身上是无利可图的。 —— 布莱希特

君子喻于义，小人喻于利。 —— 孔丘

不戚戚于贫贱，不汲汲于富贵。 —— 陶渊明

富贵不淫贫贱乐，男儿到此是豪雄。 —— 程颢

清贫，洁白朴素的生活，正是我们革命者能够战胜许多困难的地方！ —— 方志敏

三军可夺帅也,匹夫不可夺志也。 —— 孔丘

志不强者智不达。 —— 墨翟

燕雀安知鸿鹄之志哉！ —— 陈涉

志当存高远。 —— 诸葛亮

老骥伏枥，志在千里；烈士暮年，壮心不已。 —— 曹操

燕雀戏藩柴，安识鸿鹄游。 —— 曹植

穷且益坚，不坠青云之志。 —— 王勃

大鹏一日同风起，扶摇直上九万里。 —— 李白

古之立大事者，不惟有超世之才，亦必有坚忍不拔之志。 —— 苏轼

生当作人杰，死亦为鬼雄，至今思项羽，不肯过江东。 —— 李清照

壮心未与年俱老，死去犹能作鬼雄。 —— 陆游

故立志者，为学之心也；为学者，立志之事也。 —— 王阳明

贫不足羞，可羞是贫而无志。 —— 吕坤

我们以人们的目的来判断人的活动。目的伟大，活动才可以说是伟大的。 —— 契诃夫

毫无理想而又优柔寡断是一种可悲的心理。 —— 培根

生活的理想，就是为了理想的生活。 —— 张闻天

人，只要有一种信念，有所追求，什么艰苦都能忍受，什么环境也都能适应。 —— 丁玲

理想的人物不仅要在物质需要的满足上，还要在精神旨趣的满足上得到表现。 —— 黑格尔

一个能思想的人，才真是一个力量无边的人。 —— 巴尔扎克

一个没有受到献身的热情所鼓舞的人，永远不会做出什么伟大的事情来。 —— 车尔尼雪夫斯基

共同的事业，共同的斗争，可以使人们产生忍受一切的力量。 —— 奥斯特洛夫斯基

我从来不把安逸和快乐看作是生活目的本身---这种伦理基础，我叫它猪栏的理想。 —— 爱因斯坦

2007-08-27T23:43:00.000+08:00

看了自己，决定加把劲，努力读书，取得好成绩。
“失败乃之成功之母”我非常相信这句话。
希望自己真的成长了，体会到更多的东西，能够让自己前进。
以免以后长大了，要后悔也来不及了。
对我来说，成功来至于努力，要取得好成绩，就得用功，
因为这世界上并没有最快解决方法的shortcut。

我决定了，从今以后，为了让自己的母语；华文水准较好，以后一定的用华文blog至少一个星期3次。
这是我对自己的努力，希望自己能珍惜。。。

数字并不重要，重要的是我有那刻有心的心去写，这才是最重要的吧。。。

randomming

2007-08-27T23:40:00.001+08:00

random day,random me i guess...
randoming... just feel like blogging. don't blame me if you don't understand it, because i also don't understand it.

梁甫吟

作者: 李白

　
长啸梁甫吟，何时见阳春？
君不见朝歌屠叟辞棘津，八十西来钓渭滨。
宁羞白发照渌水，逢时吐气思经纶。
广张三千六百钓，风期暗与文王亲。
大贤虎变愚不测，当年颇似寻常人。
君不见高阳酒徒起草中，长揖山东隆准公。
入门不拜骋雄辩，两女辍洗来趋风。
东下齐城七十二，指挥楚汉如旋蓬。
狂生落魄尚如此，何况壮士当群雄。
我欲攀龙见明主，雷公砰訇震天鼓，帝旁投壶多玉女。
三时大笑开电光，倏烁晦冥起风雨。
阊阖九门不可通，以额扣关阍者怒。
白日不照吾精诚，杞国无事忧天倾。
YaYu磨牙竞人肉，驺虞不折生草茎。
手接飞猱搏雕虎，侧足焦原未言苦。
智者可卷愚者豪，世人见我轻鸿毛。
力排南山三壮士，齐相杀之费二桃。
吴楚弄兵无剧孟，亚夫咳尔为徒劳。
梁甫吟，声正悲，张公两龙剑，神物合有时。
风云感会起屠钓，大人NiWu当安之。
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塞下曲

作者: 李白

　
五月天山雪，无花只有寒。
笛中闻折柳，春色未曾看。
晓战随金鼓，宵眠抱玉鞍。
愿将腰下剑，直为斩楼兰。
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子夜吴歌

作者: 李白

　
长安一片月，万户捣衣声。
秋风吹不尽，总是玉关情。
何日平胡虏，良人罢远征

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2007-08-24T23:00:00.000+08:00

One word to describe today----SARCARSTIC

random

2007-08-23T19:45:00.000+08:00

我要改变自己！！我要改变自己！！变成一个更开心，满足的人！！！

Thoughts ran as fast as they could.

2007-08-23T19:26:00.000+08:00

Hello, guys. I have not been blogging for a very long while. Well, i think its time for me to update my blog. Haha
Anyway, today was quite a very emotion-al day for me. Haiz, why leh?
Coz aa few things happen dat make me thiNK alot!
Let's go by the order of events kays?
Ok, first up, i wake up at 5.50( omg Extremely LATE) den went to took school bus to skool.
den next, during the time in class, i am chiong-ing my english hmwk. Ok im so glad i finished it, but its like crap? ahahha. Lang arts lesson got teacher come in, but aso nothin much, same as usual.
Den is science.... goosh lor. tmr science test. i haven study yet. i duncare liao lar. i dunwanna studyyy.dammm.dennnn science as boring as usual.wonder why issit so. haiz why all science teacher so boring de.....
after dat is HISTORY.... weee .ook lar. my favourite subject mar... so quite nice. okies. lot of jokes for ernie as usual, denn haha, we learn mao zedong and the cultural revolution today. LOL
i findthe little red guards stupiidd!jajaja. i never will want to be one of DEM!
Next is recess!lOl recess not fun HAHAHAH. coz after dat will be CID, damdamdam
we go library as usual, den slacked through the day. hate my topic can. coz its ancient chinese units of measurement and the web like NTH at all. wahh sian. ok today the teacher quite good.
let us go early, coz after dat got maths test.
OK maths lesson , maths test. oh sian. i didnt dothe bonus question correctly, so sad lar, coz i oni use 3mins to do it..NO time.sobsobx .quite difficult lar. nvm lor. im not dat good in it aniwae.
U wouldnt believe it. THE NEXT lesson is ........CHINESE........... i supersuper nervous and scared coz must present today ....... i was like figetting throughout the lesson.damddam.den my turn, im like so scared .den jumble alot of words at the end..... ahhh!!!.ok lar at least i gotten 7/10... LOL hahah. Oh gosh, i wanna get rid of my phobia for chinese lesson. HElp me!!!gottten back shui hu and chinese compo aso,quite surprised. I PASSED ALL.shui hu 24/30 den compo is 35,38,39. though quite lousy, BUT AT LEAST I PASSED rite? i m SO HAPPI.denden, errrr geog teacher came in. coz she wan us double check our marks.

ok lar den i WENT for training.
training oni got me ,jesslyn,olivia, annies...den we train awhile, never relli train dat much, coz got sec 3 around. haix im so scared lar.... i relli cant shout satu properly. dammnit Y CANT I DO BETTER!??!? Y CANT I CHANGE MYSELF.DAMMM. stupid ME.!!haiz... i relli hope rite, we can at least do our best for the comp, even though we knew our standard wasn't dat high. BUt at least, DO to the BEST we could right? shouldn't we? cant we just think more positively. i noe we arent good... but there may be miracle and dere will be no regrets if we relli did our best. i dunanna any regrets.... i relli dunwan. den after dat, went library with jesslyn. oh gosh, super not nice part is here. dunwanna say animore, coz so stupid lar.. eee. so embarrassing de things.!!
haha. den went home. im supposed to study biology, but im still bloggin.hahaha. i tink i needa vent out my emotions at time.hahah

Im really feeeling very ............. Stressed with my emotions bottled up in me!!

IconS!!

2007-08-12T14:31:00.000+08:00

L0ngl0ng time no post liao.so i shall post.but don't know what to post.
SO i shall p0st lame stuff.h000h000h000.haaahaahaaa
the icon compeitition.mauhahaha.created by me
In 8th position

hohoho.this is warcraft.
my cousie lend me de.haix.not very fun.but good for getting rid of boredom for awhile.not addictive. Rate:2.5/5

In 7th position

Avg.downloaded it a few days ago.coz my computer got a virus.den i desperately finding anti virus program. THIS 1 good anti virus RATE:3/5

In 6th position
The sims 2 , quite fun, quite addictive, but h0r oni short-termed entertainment.u'll get bored easiler.good for ppl who is bored for awhile. RATE:3/5

5th position
Kongkongsea.downloadable at http://www.kongkongsea.com/.

not bad, not addictive, but needto download,not much ppl plae too.RATE:3/5

4th position

AUditionsea.downloadable at http://www.auditionsea.com/

last time my favourite, now no more, quite boring liao.its ADDICTIVE but only for a period of time. can last u for months or even a year. but after dat u get bored of it RATE:3.5/5

2nd runner up

This is the best programm ever,INTERNET EXPLORER.HELP U in everything.hmwk,games,practically everything. RATE:4/5
1st runner up
GUNBOUND.A FUNFUNFUN game.addictive, last time plae, den no plae, den now plae again. ITS FUN.=D RATE:4.5/5

CHAMPION

MSN .BEST ONLINE CHAT ROOM.MUST DOWNLOAD.SO CAN CHAT WITH ME.

CREDITS TO PNGHANG AKA KAKANA

03/08/2007

2007-08-03T11:42:00.000+08:00

in computer lab now.having comp lesson.
later have speech and drama.wth><
den got cca.wear full-u leh.sighhhx.and h0r
somemore, i forget bring my walkaton card.sobx.T.T
sigh.dam.die liao lar.forget bring.
iwonder wat will happen to me.
lets just hope nothing happens.
lesh do some flash back.
flag raising first.listen to alot ppl tok toktok.
sian lor
hate ppl sharing all dose stuff.
den chinese lesson.oklar.boring as usual.haix.
den english.
for e first time.
itwas interesting.
mebbe coz i like listening to stories.
macbeth,shakespeare.sad got hmwk to do.
den science, mr cbh never come again.sigh.
itink if he continue never come.we sure.flunk bio liao lar.
PLZ COME...ahhh
den break.the western stall so long.den i realise germs iss damdamdamdamdamslow in eting.wahhh.sian.
den now l0r.comp lesson. tcher give ppl time to finish hmwk.i so guai.finish liao.
now slacking.
haiz
dunwan SPCH AND DRAMMA.
DUNWAN WEAR FULL-U

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i SLACKED at 03/08/2007 11:46:40

友情是否是永恒？

2007-08-02T23:14:00.000+08:00

最近2d发生了许多事情，
有开心的，也有不开心的。
现在再也看不到大家的笑脸，
只能看见人们发愁的表情，
感觉到他们的烦恼与悲伤，
似乎觉得自己活在黑暗中。
为什么大家的感情会搞成这样，
难道真的没得补救了吗？
班上里的好朋友分开了，
不只一个，而是几个。
为什么大家不能站在不同的角度呢？
为什么大家不能改变自己呢？
你，我，他，她，它，
多并不是完美的，
但那又有什么大不了的!
只要能克服自己，就能够变得更好。
今年已经是我们在一起的最后一年了，
难道真的就不能活得快了一点吗?
可能是因为每个人的想法，态度不同，
所以才回导致道这些问题。
我所认识的班到底在哪里？
快把它还给我，
因为它已经是我生活上的一部分。
我真得很珍惜我的班，
真希望大家能和睦共处，
把每个人的一天弄的非常开心。。。
真的真的真得非常希望那些好朋友，
能够合好，并且回去以前的2d。
我爱，喜欢，珍惜，cherish,like 2d，
希望你们也跟我有同样的感觉。

友情是否是永恒？真希望那个答案是"是"...

。。。方涵。。。。

Reminisce

2007-07-29T17:29:00.000+08:00

Been wanting to post for a longlong time, but dunno wat urge stop me. but shall just post all i could today.hopes to post postpost.dunwanna do hmwk.its killing me.haix.

Yesterday was public duty at serangoon sports stadium,meet with jesslyn at 6.15 den go jec outside tat taxi stand to meet with the sec 3 and 1.den went serangoon stadium luh. go dere, saw 1 oc,quite scared but after awhile ok liao.den wait at volunteer area. got breakfast,den got free shirt. den changed to free shirt. another oc came...scared again.b4 we were told where to stationed,YET another oc came. total 3 oc luh. den me,jesslyn,lynette and zhixiang was stationed at a place,den at dere we look at the track and field event.totally no casualty at all can?den the oc kip telling ppl to switch here switch dere...i lucky, never meet any casualty,but jesslyn and lynette unlucki, tio 2 casualty.jesslyn got a bu shuang face by... coz she haven learn how to end a roller bandage(we HAVEN LEARN CAN)den lynette got scolded by ...devil... coz the casualty nothin wrong de but SHE INSIST ON BEING BANDAGE.and the ...DEVIL... SAY SHE SLACK LO.WTH .THERE WAS NO CASUALTY .WAT U WAN US DO.TREAT E AIR?!?!?.wth can. why the oc so unreasonable.after dat b4 go home.sec 3 tio scold by oc again for being thicked skin, say we want to eat dere.wth , we never want to eat dere de...den later took bus to kovan mrt. den we quickly go kovan mrt board a train.lucky oc not same train as us.u noe h0r got 1 oc go complained to... and say we(every1 includin sec 3) very zao1 gao1.sian lar.itink dey dam unreasonable luh. PLUS ME & JESS dunwan go PD DE LUH.COZ MRS TAN SAY MUST GO. WALAO EH.sian.dam.dam.den later eat at jec with sec 3 and 1.ate at foodcourt.mood slightly better.den go home liao luh.actually. i not dat angry ,coz i never relli tio scold.haiya, very unfair for e other .SOI MUST POST.sian luh..sigh. someting dat relli puzzles me, why e sec 1 say YESTERDAY PD WAS FUN?!!?it was TERRIBLE.LAR!

sian lar. dunwan say so much liao. i shall continue on by posting ages b4 de pics...

my dearest elmo. took dunno how long ago liao. this was the time when i have elmo craze.haha.so fun.so cute. i love it<3333

on mrt long time ago.went home with jocelyn fangqi and huimin,they trying to avoid me taking their pics.hahah.so fun=D

during last time public duty dat time.my favourite public duty .oni sec 1 an
d 2 so fun can. tis is taekwondo comp at dunno whr.fun.den tis pic is xinmun representating us taking a plague.hahah=Dso fun.FUN.LEAST SCOLDING PD

germaine lor.trying to act cute.haha.she gonna be so pissed when seeing tis.=D

scenery outside my house lor.the sunset dam nice. jjaja.too bad my phone photto quality like shyt.hahah.cannot relli see h0r. but real life.its damdamreddd!

dear gladys. tooken after service learning.we have class outing den went to macdonald eat.quite fun.no very fun.dam fun.do yer agree?gladys is cute.=D

MRS KHOOKHOO.at mac lor.haha she doesnt realise i took tis of her.=Pheeheee.nice rite?

scenery outside zjy house.not bad h0r. i see loads of nicenice house.hhaha

my cousie lor. his birthday dat day.happi bdae.bdae boy=D

during beach cleaning. wait
ar gonna have more pics.below HAHHA

jesslyn class being late for assembly den wayne wong wants dem write 500 time of this.its WTH LAR?

im randoming.haha.make by me.not nice h0r.><

Suddenly, i feel like writing about what happened during e & c week.
my electives is kick boxing.not dat fun. its was lame.stupid and irritating.haix spend whole day doing lame stuff.waste of my time.haixx
little india trip
not bad lar.walk here walk dere.den see ppl culture.den got quite alot ppl do henna.i dunlike coz so eeewww..haha ps not racism just dunlike the color.haha.
SERVICELEARNING.
so-so lar. ok lar. go dunno wat old folks place,den interact.idundare lor.im so shy.><
den after dat class outing.eat mac den me fq,jl,micole go zjy house.ok lar.her house dam empty .go in den got 1 bigbig mirror.den fq ran towards its.lmao.den i left earlier coz i nth to do.walk all e way to mrt. itink i was lost...haix.but still reach in e end.
CAMp
DAM FUN
I LOVE SAFRA LOADS
GRATS GLADYS MISS BOWLER
GRATS CHIKAN OUTSTANDING 12 INDIVUAL
GRATS GRP 7 FOR TOP 3 BEST GRP.(even though it think shuld be grp 8)
LOVE SAFRA.LOVE WATER ACTIVITIES.

itink i nth to say liao lar.
oh ya just gotten stjohntee.abit not nice,but nvm.quite excited about it aniwae.LOVE squadmates loads.=D

lala.sian

2007-07-13T12:04:00.001+08:00

now in computer lab.ppl doing flash, i done liaox... haiya so slacking now. sian
later is speech and drama.wtff.. follow by cca.YAY.haha.nth to say. my shortest post i tink.siannxxx. relli so dam boredd.laaaa

lala.sian

2007-07-13T12:04:00.000+08:00

RaWrRR

2007-07-03T19:53:00.000+08:00

hie people, today was a relatively fun day.buddden i forget to bring mY pencil b0x to class >< haix lesson was as usual b0ring ,and i alm0st fell asleep.hAhA. den blahblahblah. sian l0rx tmr have history and science and we have a possibility to present tmr. i dunwan history roleplay lar>< c0z sure flunk it de.e b0ys like so dam irresponsible can?den after dat,blahblahblah...
after school is cca l0r. at first i wan p0n de. but on 2nd thought rite... i tink i should go l0rx since its n0t pt,den i tink still can lar. ok lar. today h0r, the sec 1 and 3 go take maths NSW, den onli left sec 2 go cca first, sec 4 take us .n0t bad lar.den 0Cs came aso,dey are n0t dat bad after all itink. n0t much scolding from dem today. kinda fun. den today is selecting ppl go FOOTDRILL COMP.den i was dam nervous. i aso kinda dunwan go.but h0r in my heart, i aso dam excited... i hate the part where ppl have to volunteer and give commands to the squad. i was like nervous till say wrongly at the start lar. so EMBARRASSED LO. budden i aso got get shortlisted f0r e commander tingy budden in e end still jesslyn.AND IM SO HAPPI CAN?coz commander like so dam stressful and i n0t good in articulation and memorising the commands. den after veryveryvery long hours of drills rite. my musclle all painpain,budden ENDURE!!!hahhahahah!!!!when the sec 4 announcing ppl who are chosen rite, i in my heart, already tink i sure wont go in de l0rx. budden in e END, i WAS CHOSEN ASO LAR. I WAS LIKE!! HUH!!!??????? c0z i knew my drill standard was like shyt and i alwaes pon can? den i cannot relli catch UP. BUDDEN i aso quite happi larX.i relli starting to l0ve my cca. WOOOHOO. I LOVE MY SQUADMATES ALOTALOTALOTALOTALOT!!!<33333333333333333333333333333333MUAHAHAHAHHA BE HONORED TO BE LOVED BY ME=X

YoYoYo.

2007-06-30T22:10:00.000+08:00

Hie ppl.im gonna post again.
hahah. been updating my blog tis few days.idunnoe why.but it seems fun lee.haha.just now went reading ppl blog and i came across some very meaningful ones.for example that bingle bell. in sch, he can be such a joker and a real lame person.but after reading the blog. it tell me someting esle. he can get so emo, so serious and so ...
welll, some stuffs that relli make me thinks. "why are we living" i really agree with the post. i really do. i alwaes ask myself tis questions when im sad... and he did say why ppl have to pOn cca... welll, itink thats becoz the will of ppl arent that strong. without determination, we will never be able to do tings that we hope to force ourself to do. well really, i realli wanna be able to stOp myself from pOnning animore. JUST endure.I RELLI waniT!. well enugg of other ppls blog liao.

yesterday cca. its was ok lar... sec 4 never come, let sec 3 take. budden some sec 4 got come and see us lo. den quite ok lar. the whole day is a first aid lecture, we go LT2 listen. i relli have to admit it. i relli learn alot, rather den listening to snrs teaching. i mean the speaker is a much beta teacher u noe... aso got quite a lot of teachers listening too lar. den nthmuch liao lorx. its was relli fun though.
den after dat.we went to the field den sec 1 and 2 combine do drills for awhile. haiya tinking of drills make me dam sad.coz i can never eva jerk when doing 180 degree turn. i wanna do it. BUT I CANT. budden i wun give UP. NEVER GIVE UP. my new motto of live i tink hahaha.den after dat uniform check. ok lo.at first i got away with it. budden later the senoir punished me coz my shoe de side not polished shiny enughh. den run lo with some ppl.OMg lar.olivia aso tio punished.ididnt expect tt lar. she like so prO in cca de okies?den after that cca ends liao. den went home. dat day wasnt tat tired after all.hhhahaha.
today ar... ok lo.abit siannz de day.nthto do. u noe rite,nowadays im so bored dat i turned to neopets.plz lor. im so lamee!.
im excited
bout tmr. coz public duty. itink itsgonna be so dam fun can? its 3.5hr cip points. ahhh. igonna love it. ok i aso like my cca frens hahaha. itink dey are like the best in rvhs. I LOVE MY SQUADMATES rather den my class freenz.zzz. i relli love dem . <3333 arhh i love dem. hey peepo out dere. SQUADMATES foreva kaes.?
and to ppl who are sad in live, dun be sad , stay optimistic, dats how i survived.
dey is definately ppl who cared bout u though life sux. tis relli rox on ppl.

budden, life relli sux....
ok im done ..
bye.
love u all squadmates.<3333333
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moody

2007-06-28T20:56:00.000+08:00

i just pick a new blogskin today. haishh.the skin totally does not fit my mood lo. budden i just use it coz i tink its kinda nice.
i dunnoe what im actually tinking bout nowadays. relli having severe mood swings at home. i can relli get so down. whyyy... i hate living and that is thing i can relli confirm.i really wanna a happier life, but things just cant go the way we wanted.
the world
is full of
imperfect people
which i really cant stand.
but wat can i do.its the nature of people
i'm forever trying to accept such fact.....
sometimes, things started to blow up if i kept too much emotions inside me..i realli wanted to say it out now. i wanna cry, but who is there who will alwaes care beside me? Noone, i have no good friends at all.... im sorry but i will have to say this,none of my friends seems to be true to me....
i never noe, i never understand...
why is life so sad.... why am i the 1 suffering. i noe there is worst ppl den me.
but being lonely is a feeling, i relli hated, i dont wanna suffer animore....i relli hope to see hope of light shining on me.
Will anyone stands by myside and comfort me... i knew i have to depend on myself...
despite the unhappy life i have been living in, i alwaes persevere ,just to stay alife for ppl.
wwhy do u wan me alive, whenn u never care for me?
i alwaes ask my self tis question" what is the reason of my existence?who am i living for?"
i still insearch in teh answer.but den,some1 once told me tis " u live for urself ,not for others" it was already the best answer i found, and with it ,i noe the reason of my existence. and thats already enough.
i do not ask for much, and i dun relli wan much......
all i ask for, is just to live happy forever and eva. it will be teh best thing that eva happens to me.........

my hope liess forever deep inside me.....

How well do you Know me?

2007-06-09T18:31:00.000+08:00

Create your own Friend Test here

Haiya.....tooooo bored till idrop..just take lo.iwould greatly appreciate......

kakana...irelli feellonesome.....

Postpostpost

2007-05-24T21:20:00.000+08:00

I decided to post today, cause fangqi(huachi) is rushing me to update mie blog..okies lor. today i shall type in slang for the 1st time...Today school was fine..Have Art lesson,followed by maths, was lucky dat i do not need to present today. But tmr cham le lor. sure need present...very scared lor...pathetic sia.den is break.den chinese. I WAS SO DAM HAPPY LAR. TODAY NO NEED ACT THE SHUI HU. i dun wan act de lor. phew alot ppl go phtotaking=)yay tks peepos..!!den is cid watch movie so nice.den english watch another movie. INTERESTIng day i hab today. den went to orchard with fangqi and germaine to watch pirates of e carribean. smuggled in food lOls. FANGQI IDEA=X den hor it was so nice lAR. SO NICE E SHOW. 2hr 45mins though. i tink fq have a strong craze over mature man. like jack sparrow, william and also teachers like ahlanhe,ernie... lOls *sniggers* hahah. den by the time the movie end. 7.30pm le. den i reached home at around 8.30 lor. so late. though got hmwk. but i dunwan do le lar. just slack heck care. sigh tmr cca sia. wanna go die. stupid cca. HOP off to search movie to see.. haha cya

Felt

2007-05-23T17:16:00.000+08:00

I feel more distance from them, its getting more distinct each day. I seems to be further away from them. I tried to repair the relationship but it doesn't seems to be able to work. I really am feeling so distant, my heart began to give up... I,no matter what, is never able to change this cowardly heart of mine, one that is not sociable and not daring enough. Why can't i change myself... I really hate the current me! I wanted to be more daring, i wanted to socialise more, i wanted to be a more interesting person and live a happy life. There seems to be an obstacle blocking me from achieving this goal. I never had a really good friend in my secondary school life. Things seems to be going the wrong way for me... I never seems to be contented and how i really wish that i can have a GOOD friend to confide things to, to share with. Despite how i look that i have many friends in school. I am never seem to be close to them. All of them have their best friends and what could i do,i can only be a bulb out of no where. Whenever we have to get into groups, i always have trouble finding one. Franky, nobody seems to be wanting to be acknowledging me, and i always hated to be in groups. I never have a chance to do anything. This is all because of my cowardly heart. Why can't i be more brave, why, why.. I really cannot tolerate this kind of life anymore. I am really feeling so pathetic... I wanna change myself... but can anyone tell me how... I am just escaping the problems and living in darkness... To me ,life is really meaningless, and i reallly wish that i could see the ray of hope in my life... someday...

TOday

2007-05-15T12:27:00.000+08:00

TOday is a tuesday.
The day which we have to go to CCA.
The day we have to take our health checkup
The day that 2Destinyians go for eating during Tamil lessons.
A day by which i hate, i dislike, i detest, i fear and i hope to get out of.
I always wonder why,why do we have to suffer in torment.
Its that what our life is about?Why do we have to respect our senoirs?They are just 2 years older than us, do we really need to listen to them? IS IT EVEN WISE?
I hated my cca,i do not know why... I really want to find the reason of my fear.
I detested it, but i never really beared to leave it...Why?WHY? Why did i even chose it in the first place? I chose my cca to learn first aid skills, but in the end, we did more of footdrill and PT instead... Pt my worst fear? Yes you are right, I really HATED it, i CANT stand IT, I really hate it... Foot drill? It is fun, but with the senoir around, i can never love it. Couldn't they be more patient. Is It our fault that we cant really do well? DO they think we ARE GODS? Do they think we have that much time to practise at home? Im really sorry, but this comes from my heart. I could not stand it anymore, i wish to vent it out, but not to somebody, but to myself...
Today is also the day, i got back my maths result. I was elated, i did not fail, it is definately a BIG ACCOMPLISHMENT to me...Well, here are the results of my subjects,I did not really fail any subjects, and thats is all i asked for...
Language Arts:40/60
Chinese:33/60
Maths:46/60
Science:48/70
History:37/50
Geography:31/50
ALTHOUGH I PASSED. BUT ITS LIKE SO DAM PATHETIC OKIES?
I'LL TRY HARDER, AND I'LL STRIVE HARDER.=)

Lame me

2007-04-30T15:37:00.000+08:00

I'm too lazy to post any entries today because its exam week.

I know IM LAME OK! IM JUST PURELY LAME AND BORED...
HAHAHA

Sign off-------------------
you rock,i rock, we stone
-GoD-kakana <33333 -GoD-MelOdy.HAPPY FRENSHIP WITH -GoD-snowiie ="P

开心，在哪里？

2007-04-27T00:27:00.000+08:00

我已经很久没来博客了。最近忙着读书，因为考试快到了。我不知不觉地开始向小学那样勤劳了起来。但我还是有一点的懒惰，要开始读书，就会睡了一半天。我觉得自己似乎浪费了很多时间，而现在只剩下宝贵的三天，希望自己能好好地把握。不知道为什么自己会这么关心学业，这是我从来都没感受到的感觉。即使自己着么想逼自己读书，但难免会遇到一些难题。现在才发现我对每个课目都有些不知道。。。真后悔自己没在上课时多专心一点，但现在后悔也来不及了。我只能更加勤劳地去把它读好。现在，心中有许多如果：
如果我能专心一点的话
如果我能控制自己的话
如果我能没那么懒惰的话
如果我根本多没爱上电脑的话
如果我能重新地生活，我一定选择活地比较快乐，自由自在
如果我根本多没在这个世界，会有多么的好呢？
虽然自己心中那么多如果，但他们却未免会发生。最近，自己开始懒懒闪闪的过着生活。自己觉得人生已经没什么意义了。相死但又怕痛，伤害到别人和有许多放不下的事情。这也不是解决问题的方法。我一直在想人一生下来，是不是只读书，工作和死而以呢？难道我们只是为了生纯自己才来到这个世界的吗？这是不是只是一个人生经验而已。想一想，人读书只是为了以后长大能做有用的人，而工作只是来养自己。每天都读书/工作到很晚才回家，而他又带来了这么多烦恼，根本都没有娱乐的时间。自己一直在想，自己的人生是否也会活到这么无趣。我想我一定不要这样的活着，想快了一点，并且也让别人快乐，希望自己以后能当一名义工，帮助别人。所谓“助人为快乐之本”帮助别人，心中始终会感到快乐，只要看到人们的一个微笑，自己就会开心多了。心中还有一个问题，就是为什么人有权力呢？人一生下来就是平等的，为什么有些人有那么多权力，而有些人又没有呢？到底是哪些人有这个权力来分权利呢？自己本生认为大家都应该同等，而不应该争高下。在这世界上有虽多的穷民，我们为什么要为了钱才买东西呢。难道人真的那么自私吗？？钱虽然会让有些人开心，但他对我并没任何的重要性。对我来说，大家开心，自己就会开心，开心，开心在这个社会是多么的美好。希望这世界上有许多“好”人，把这社会弄得更好。对于一些人,他们认为爱情是最开心的。他们能为对方而牺牲自己，让我非常感动。我并还不了解爱的快乐，毕竟自己都还没真地爱上过人。有可能自己喜欢过人，但那并不是爱，应为喜欢过了一阵只就会没有了。
喜欢和爱有天跟地的差别。喜欢的程度没有到爱那么深。本生自己不想尝试爱，应为他会带来许多开心，伤心和牺牲。虽然说你能从中得到快乐，但你爱的人未免会爱你，而让你非常的心痛。自己觉得爱有一个缺点，就是不能爱上比你大或小很多的人，不然自己会感得非常的伤心。自己虽然有多么的不想爱，但我知道，自己总有一天一定会爱上别人的。只希望到时候，能活得开心一点。
自己觉得今天说些的，斌不再浪费时间，而实在让自己思考。自己也感到非常得开心，竟然会写得这么愉快。。。真希望以后也能这样，让自己无趣的一天又多一点开心。开心，在哪里？我心中已经找到一个明确的答案了。。。

无聊的乱涂鸦

2007-04-18T20:55:00.000+08:00

Today i don't feel like writing any entries cause i am feeling so ''sian''...
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请你们可不可以跟我聊天，让我解解闷！
请加我的MSN:fangyhang@hotmail.com 来救活我这快要闷死的人吧！
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(()_())this bunny is dedicated to dearest germaine.=)

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在傻傻的乱画，我真的快闷死了，救救我啊！

Hopefully...想必。。。

2007-04-17T16:39:00.000+08:00

Today was kind of a nice day that i really wish to have everyday. It was simply so simple yet amusing and entertaining.First lesson was maths, it was not bad,finally a lesson that i enjoyed. We went to the computer lab to do our maths, which is about a equation that forms a straight line. I understand fully how to do it for the 1st time because i have been taught before by my tuition teacher.=) It felt so much easy! Next was tamil, definately a lesson full of laughter and happiness. We learnt how to wear a sari today. Goh Hua, Victoria and daphine tried woring it today. THEY SIMPLY LOOK SO BEAUTIFUL IN IT! It was really a nice experience and i enjoyed it alot. I have never realised that sari is such a wonderful costume. We have quite a number of visitors in class and one was even taping down the whole procedure! I was wanting to take a photo of daphine and goh hua in the sari but Mr Chua just walked past ... No choice, not everything goes as we want sometimes.Next was CID, it was quite a fine lesson with the Homo-Sapiens presenting their place, Clementi. Well, for the 1st time i actually listen attentively to a presentation. I would usually day-dream or dose off but i think i actually miracally stayed awoke today. The teachers was like saying they were kind of disapointed with this group as they had expect much better from them, mainly due to the fact that they are to last group.After the presentation, we were left with 30 minutes, so we went to the space behind the library to continue making our models.We did not really did much but just trying to make some parts of the styrofoam board, hollow, making the effect of a river. Its my idea =P hehes, but the idea of how to make it was by huimin.Guess whats next? EVERYBODY's favourite recess! Its time for us to have our lunch and get along with our peers. Nothing much happen during this period so lets get on with the next lesson, chinese! Well, i still thought that the teacher would talk about what ''walao'' means, as fangqi told me that he taught 2B about that. However i was stunned when they teacher said to carry out a debate, as i really really is very afraid of it... The topic was about whether we can use a handphone in school and then the teacher change it to '' whether we can use the phone to take photograph of people'' . It was quite an exciting lesson though, as they is alot of conversation going on about the topic and i learnt alot of things from it. I do think that this is quite a thinking question and can make us explore alot of things. Oh ya, before i forget, i cant believe that my chinese teacher is 170cm which is 13 cm taller than fangqi. Fangqi told me that a person ideal partner is 13cm taller then her and i think its such a coincidence that this happens. Next was language arts, alot of conversation going on too. Sihua was like saying that edward likes Miss teo, and my classmates was trying to guess who edward likes. From sihua(reliable source), he said that the person edward likes is in 2D,so we were like trying to bribe sihua into telling us.=)The last lesson was science, chemistry. The lesson is held in the computer lab . Miss Khang was not here today so we have a relief teacher telling us to complete a worksheet by going to a few website given. It was quite fun as i personally like science as i think i am a person who loves to explore. I was able to complete the worksheet but i do not know whether my answers are correct. Fangqi who is beside me was looking at blogs after finishing the worksheet.It seems like blogging is almost a part of students lifes already... The most fun part of today is that we went to queensway shopping centre. At first, fangqi suggested to go to Vivo city to eat Bens & Jerrys ice-cream because they are giving away free ice-cream. Huimin was like so jealous of us having no CCA while she still has to go attend it, because she has promotion test today. Me and jocelyn was like souring her and teasing her.(lolx i felt so bad=P)
However, we decided to go to queensway instead because we think it is nearer and fangqi wants to check out the price to make class tee-shirts. We found quite a number of shops in there but the cheapest is around $17.50 which was like $4 more then last year. However i think it is really worth it as we are having our last year as a class and we should cherish this chance and get along together.(wooo im starting to like 2D)I really like the design as it is cute and attractive.After this we went to MacDonalds to eat our lunch. Everyone of us bought MacFlurry ,most probably because it is nice?Anyway nothing much happens in MacDonald because we just chatted and eat.The main part is when we were at the bus stop waiting for bus to go home. At first, we saw bus number 100 and as we were about to go up, Goh Hua stopped us and wanted us to accompany her and wait for her bus first. So we waited and waited. During the process of waiting, i used my handphone and took some pictures of Goh Hua, Fangqi and Germaine,but not jocelyn, cause she is simply avoiding the CAMERA! Though its a simple day, but i really enjoyed it, it just bring a smile on my face as to me, a simple day is what i really hope to cherish everyday!=)))))))))smileys.. Below are the pictures i took at the bus stop.=)))))

GERMAINEY LOOKING SO EVIL=)

Germainey & fangqi.Girls acting cute..=P

haha fq posing in front of camera.1,2,3 cheeeeese.so photogyenic

wahahahha germainium & goh hua.cute mar?

FQ AGAIN. WAH HYPE-ENTHU de PIG

WAHHAHAHA GERMAINE NG IS HERE AGAIN...